JUST WALK AWAY

THOUGHTS OF YOU SHALL TEASE MY MIND
FROM DAWN UNTO THE DUSK
HOPES OF WHAT MIGHT COME OF IT
DIMINISHING DAILY


NERVES ON END MOST OF THE TIME
CAN'T HELP IT, ALL YOUR FAULT
WHATEVER YOU HAVE DONE TO ME
IS CURRENTLY IRREVERSIBLE


I SHUTTER TO THINK HOW LONG THIS LASTS
OR IF IT SHALL EVER CEASE
ALTHOUGH I FEEL HELPLESS
AND WITH HEARTACHE AND PAIN
I LOOK FORWARD TO IT DAILY


MAKES NO SENSE, I KNOW IT'S TRUE
BUT FEELINGS NEVER DO
ONE DAY AT A TIME I TRAVEL FORTH
TRYING NOT TO LOOK BEHIND ME


I MUSTN'T BE AFRAID
I MUST CONTINUE ON
MY LIFE DISECTED TENDERLY
DECISIONS, THOUGHTS, AND MEMORIES


WHAT'S BEST FOR MY WELL BEING
AND EASE MY TROUBLED MIND
WALK AWAY IN SILENCE
NEVER-EVER LOOKING BEHIND...

-WRITTEN BY MS. MARYANNE ~ MARIA SUMATRA~ JULY 2006

Some Positive Updates.......

Hi all. I hope everyone has been doing well. I myself have been doing tremendously well lately. To start off with, I've quit smoking. After a 27 year habitual feeding frenzy, I finally got up some nerve(with alittle help from my doctor) and decided to try to live a life without the smoke. Honestly, it's a daily struggle for me but I know that in the long run, it will be quite beneficial for me healthwise, and it may prevent the aging process just a bit, as far as wrinkles go. I've had alot of support from friends to help me get through this rough beginning. So far, I haven't had a cigarette in 16 days, which is a very big accomplishment for me--a person who smoked just alittle shy of 3 packs a day. I admit that even as I'm sitting here typing this, I'm craving a cigarette. I was using the nicotene patch. It is the strongest prescription available, (21 mgs.) but for the past few days, I've forgotten to put it on. I suppose that that's pretty good. I like to think it's very good....

I've also managed to lose 28 lbs. and drop one size down in pants. This is another great accomplishment especially since I'm trying to quit smoking at the same time. My doctor suggested that I don't worry about what I eat, and just to concentrate on my quitting smoking but I don't want to gain anymore weight and I knew if I weren't careful, that that would be the exact road I'd be headed for. So I took the liberty of cutting down-drastically- the amount of food intake in my diet each day. I hope that I can continue with this momentum. I just have to stay motivated.

Recently, there were some very severe storms in the St. Louis Metropolitan area which created havoc in every neighborhood they reached. Some people are still without electricity because of the severity of the storms. For the most part, tree cutters and workers are seen working on peoples' yards, collecting the debris left behind from the strong winds. I feel that this was the closest we've been to having a tornado in a long time. I'm not ashamed to say this....I was so very scared. I didn't know what to do or where to go. I've never been in a tornado before. I hope that I never have to experience one upclose.

I've got another vacation coming up pretty soon. I'm hoping that this one will be different from all the rest. I'm hoping that this particular vacation will begin my climb of overcoming some fears that have haunted me for the majority of my life. That's all I'm going to say on that note for right now. A very dear, close friend of mine, who lives about 11 hours away knows what I'm talking about.
Anyway, I hope everyone's doing well. Take care all, have a good week and God Bless!

~Reason, Season and Lifetime~

Reason, Season and Lifetime



People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.

When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.



When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need


you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

to provide you with guidance and support,

to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend, and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.




Then, without any wrong doing on your part

or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something

to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.




What we must realize is that our need has been met,

our desire fulfilled; their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered

and it is now time to move on.



When people come into your life for a SEASON,


it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.

They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.



LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;


those things you must build upon

in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person/people (anyway);

and put what you have learned to use in all

other relationships and areas of your life.




It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.



~Author Unknown

I'm Back!!! Well, kinda sorta........

Hi all. I've returned from a wonderfully relaxing 9-day hiatus which actually could have been longer but, was still a rather great rejuvenating experience. I didn't get to do EVERYTHING I so desperately wanted but I did get to do atleast some of things that had been sitting on the back burners of my mind. I know I talked alot about going fishing. Well, I didn't get to do much of that but the good part of this deal is that I did get some major repairs done at home. The best part of this news is that this work cost me absolutely nothing. That's right, being that I am no longer a "home owner", my landlord foot the bill so that was good enough for me! Other than home renovations being done, I also was able to set up some appointments that I never would've been able to make since I'm hardly ever here in the daytime. It's funny how things work out. On my first day of vacation, I was washing some clothes and one of my washing machines wouldn't agitate. I took the clothes out of it and put them in the other washer. Guess what? That washer didn't want to spin.(hard to believe isn't it) So there I was, faced with no washers and a ton of dirty laundry.....The odd part was that these machines were only 5 years old. I'm not that hard on appliances. I always used care when loading them. Anyway, I had to make a call to Sears and luckily, they were able to give me an appointment for the next day. The only problem was that I was intending on going fishing that day with the weather being so nice and all. Well, that was shot because my appointment was anytime between 8am and 5pm.(how convenient) Atleast I have one of the washers working again. The other one unfortunately is going to cost more to get fixed than it's worth so, I'm going to have to buy a new one. If I go to Sears within 2 weeks, I'll save $65.00 on a new one so, that's what I shall do.

I know I've been rather scarce around here but I haven't forgotten any of you. I just seem to have too many irons in the fire right now I suppose. Here's something I'd like to share with all of you. Just a little something I ran across that I'm sure everyone here will be able to relate to in one way or another......

This particular post comes from a friend of mine who occasionally blogs on StumbleUpon. He goes by the name of MusZicMan. Enjoy....

MusZicMan's reviews

TO ALL THE KIDS WHO WERE BORN IN THE
1930's 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's !!

First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while
they carried us.

They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and
didn't get tested for diabetes.

Then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with bright
colored lead-based paints.

We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and
when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks
we took hitchhiking.

As children, we would ride in cars with no seat belts or air bags.

Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special
treat.

We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle.

We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE
actually died from this.

We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter and drank soda pop with
sugar in it, but we weren't overweight because.....


WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!!

We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we
were back when the streetlights came on.

No one was able to reach us all day. And we were O.K.

We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride
down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running
into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem.

We did not have Playstations, Nintendo's, X-boxes, no video games at
all, no 99 channels on cable, no video tape movies, no surround sound,
no cell phones, no personal computers, no Internet or Internet chat
rooms..........WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them!

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no
lawsuits from these accidents.

We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live
in us forever.

We were given BB guns for our 10th birthdays,
made up games with sticks and tennis balls and although we were told
it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes.

We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or
rang the bell, or just yelled for them!

Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who
didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment. Imagine that!!

The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard
of. They actually sided with the law!

This generation has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem
solvers and inventors ever!

The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.

We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned


HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL!

And YOU are one of them!


CONGRATULATIONS!

You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow
up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated our lives
for our own good.

And while you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how
brave their parents were.

Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn't
it?!