What's up with the Chicken???

I don't know what it is about me dreaming about chicken but the other night I had a strange dream. All I can remember now is that I was shoving chicken butts down my bra. That's right you didn't misread it. I had shoved so many raw chicken butts down my bra that they were oozing out all over. I have no idea why I was doing this. Then my dream cut to me seeing my father who is now deceased. He asked me to please not ever forget about him and never stop loving him. Of course I told him that I'd never forget about him and will always love him dearly. My father used to cook a lot because my mother had heart disease. So maybe that was why I was dreaming of the chicken. As for shoving it down my bra, your guess is as good as mine.

Thirsty anyone???

I hope this doesn't turn into a normal occurrence for me. I've had yet another nightmare. This time it was about vampires. I can remember when I was a little girl and how fearful I was when it came to those blood sucking creatures. There was a show called The Night Stalker that came on around 9pm one night a week and it was on that show that I was first introduced to the demons of the night. My mom told me that when she checked in on me that night that I'd had my covers wrapped so tightly around my neck she thought I was going to choke myself to death. lol

Anyway, the other night I had this nightmare that I was on some remote island somewhere. There was this huge cave that was like a round  ball shape made of rock. There was a very large hole in the top of it which is where you would enter and exit the cave.
I remember seeing a little girl who I'm now assuming was me although she didn't look like me but I guess she represented me. This little girl was screaming and crying as she was being chased by this male vampire who happened to be, ( are you ready for this) Adam Ant! Yeah, that singer from the 80's. HA!!

The really weird part about this nightmare was that the little girl had an aluminum pan with raw chicken thighs that she carried the whole time throughout her chase. And she spilled one or two thighs as she was running which the vampire picked up and begin eating and once he tasted that raw chicken he really went into a feeding frenzy and became even more intense on catching her. The next thing I remember was this little girl being helped by a hand pulling her up and out of the cave as the vampire was clawing and trying to grab her little tennis shoes she was wearing. He couldn't come out of the cave as the dawn was upon them and would then burn him into cinders.
So I woke up at this point. The time was 1:25 AM.
I shook my head in disbelief and laid back down to go back to sleep. Guess what? As I fell back to sleep, the nightmare continued!!
It was the same island with the same castle and the same little girl with those raw chicken thighs again. WTF???

This time the poor child is being chased by a female vampire. And this time the vampire didn't seem to be or look like any kind of celebrity or person I've ever known or seen. It was odd running in a circular path in this cave. That's all I can remember now and of course I woke up once again but this time it was exactly and hour later. It was 2:25AM. Strange huh?...
And once again I'm a nervous wreck upon awakening with heart palpatations and fear and the turning on of all the lights in the house and Geez!!!
Needless to say my night was a very restless one.

Sleeping with the Aliens

WOW! It's been a long time since I've been on here. I just wanted to share a weird nightmare I had about a week ago. It must have really freaked me out since I still remember it. 


I was laying on my back in this narrow cylinder with a rather huge upholstered pillow over me at the opening of the cylinder. Now mind you I had just recently had an MRI done in my real life so I guess that's why I was in the cylinder. Anyway, there were these aliens who looked just like human beings. Some Chinese dude was shooting this pellet gun at me and I could feel the pellets going into the pillow I held above my head and body. My hands jerked as the pellets were piercing the pillow.


Then the nightmare cuts to a part where I've obviously been captured and they have me on this stretcher or gurney. A Vietnamese woman has now joined the Chinese man. The woman says, " She not dead!" and the Chinese man says in a very annoying voice, " She's dead!" But the Vietnamese woman insists, " I said she not dead!!" So now the Chinese man decides to prove it to her by shooting the pellets directly into my feet. And lemme tell ya, it hurt like hell but there was no way I was gonna make the slightest move because I wanted them to think I was really dead. The Chinese man looked at the woman after he shot me in my feet and said, " See, she's dead. She will die."


I'm sure that the gurney still represented my last visit to the hospital for ex-rays and other tests. lol


So now, the nightmare cuts to a part where I am sitting in what appears to be a dental office chair. You know, like when you're going to get your teeth worked on and there sits none other than that wonderful Vietnamese woman looking straight at me. She reaches to her left an takes this one inch pinkish color cube into her hand. She then extends her arm out in front of my face and says, " Eat this!" I'm looking at this thing that seems to resemble a liv-a-snap treat for a dog and as she hands it to me I notice right away that the texture of it is like lava soap. It feels like a little square stone. She then says in a more stern voice, " Eat it! My daughter OD ed on 3 of these."  I must be looking at her like she has 3 heads at this point because she's really getting pissed at me. So, I stick it in my mouth and begin chewing and thinking all the while, " This bitch is crazy if she thinks I'm gonna eat this stuff. It'll kill me. " I begin to barf and she totally freaks out and passes me a waste basket to regurgitate in at which time I am able to spit that disgusting rough square piece of crap out of my mouth and into the trash.


Somehow I get away because the next part of the nightmare, I'm being chased by a Black man who just so happens to be the actor who played the president from that show called 24 with Keefer Sutherland in it. So I'm running to some elevators and he's getting closer as he chases me. I get onto the elevator and scramble my fingers on the buttons to get the doors to close and frantically push a button to take me down to the street level. The elevator starts to go downward but just as it begins to move down, the man on the outside of the elevator presses the button so the elevator begins going back up to pick him up. I have a coniption fit and begin frantically pushing the numbers to make the elevator go down as I mumble, " oh no he's gonna get me!" So that goes on back and forth maybe about 2 or 3 times and then, I wake up! My heart is racing a mile a minute and I'm still half asleep so I still think I'm being chased by aliens so I go around the entire house and turn all the lights on! Did I mention to you that the time is 4am? 
I finally wake up enough to figure out that I was just having a bad dream and start to calm down and get ready for work.  Man, I hate having nightmares. What's up with the aliens? And why weren't there any White, Mexican, Indian, or Italian aliens? Bizarre.....

WHATEVER........

HA HA HA HA HA HA

Top Ten Reminders That You're Getting Older.....

10. TAKE IT DOWN A NOTCH - You're not as quick as you used to be so stop trying to be Speedy Gonzales. Slow down. You'll still make it to the finish line, just a little later that's all....

9. LISTEN TO YOUR BODY - When you feel an ache acknowledge it. This isn't Jenny Craig's no pain no gain program. This is your friend Arthur talking to you. Don't ignore him 'cause if you know Arthur, he doesn't play around. Also known as Arthritis and you don't want him as an enemy. Believe me when I tell ya....

8. DRESS TO IMPRESS, NOT TO DEPRESS - You're not a teenager or 20 or 30 something anymore so don't dress like it. Be classy not trashy. There's nothing worse than squeezing into an outfit that's 2 sizes too small for you and revealing, thinking you look good only to see others perceiving you as outrageously funny. That's depressing........

7. MAKEUP ( REMEMBER LESS IS MORE ) - Natural looking is in. The character Mimi from The Drew Carey Show is out! You're not auditioning for the circus. Actually, this comment is mainly directed to the women well over 60. You know the ones. Eyebrows penciled in like Corky the Clown because they shaved them off and the small lips they once had are now 3 times as large brought to you by the miracle of lipstick. And it always has to be RED LIPSTICK! Walking around looking like Ruby Ragoña! Shame on you!! You just wanna enhance your natural beauty. Stop trying to hide your laugh lines. So ya got crows feet now Big whoop. And what's up with women close to 70 years old with no damn gray hair? Not one. So maybe you do still have a nice shape on you but what about the poor unsuspecting guy who walks up behind you thinking he's about to say a flirty hello only to find out that when you turn around towards him, you look like methusela all wrinkled up and everything. You're probably old enough to be his grandmother for Christ's sake! Age gracefully ladies, Please.....

6. ADULTS ONLY - You're an adult, not a child. So act your age, not your shoe size. It's okay to have fun and keep a youthful mind. But adult fun and child-like fun are two different things. Going out on the town for dinner and drinks and becoming a bit " tipsy " is one thing. Going out on the town for dinner and drinks, getting butt hole drunk and acting like a damn fool, dancing like Pee Wee Herman up on the tables while flirting with other people's dates and throwing up all over yourself in public is just plain stupid. Just say no......

5. A WALKING MEDICINE CABINET - Your pharmacist has become your newest best friend. Yes, it's no longer fun popping pills because you HAVE TO take them now! Geez!

4. MUSIC IN THE AIR - Elevator music is now appealing to you because you know all the songs! So don't be shy just sing along....

3. MEANWHILE, BACK AT THE WORKPLACE - The majority of your co-workers were born the year you started working there. Oh yea.....and some of them are YOUR SUPERIORS!! DEAL WITH IT!

2. A HISTORY LESSON - When you tell your child that their history book is wrong because you were there, you REALLY ARE old. - * shaking my head *

1. PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE - You have more patience, but actually, it's just that you don't care anymore. Gee, isn't that the truth.....

To Dream or not to Dream.......

Dreams are interesting. Quite interesting really. A few days ago while at work, one of my co-workers, his name is George, started telling me about this recurring dream he has quite often. He dreams a lot about flying. He said that in this particular dream, he's sitting inside the batmobile, ( If you're thinking of Batman and Robin, you're right! )

So, in his dream, Batman and Robin are sitting in the front seats and he's sitting in the back seat of the vehicle with ( of all people ) Elvis Presley. lol
He told me that he looks over at Elvis and just opens the door of the car and starts flying. He doesn't have any special super powers or anything like that but he can fly. Also in the dream, he's wearing regular street clothes. He doesn't have any type of crime fighters attire on. Of course when he told me and my other co-workers about the dream, we naturally began laughing. I guess you'd have to know him to get the full benefit. George is an African American male about 60 years old. He's a very likable person. Very down to earth and friendly. There's just something extremely funny about seeing him in jeans and a T-shirt flying through the air. lol
There's also another dream he has quite frequently where he's pulling something in the form of taffy candy out of his mouth continuously. He just keeps on pulling he says and it never ends. lol Strange dreams, eh. We all have them at some point or another.

Which brings me to what I want to talk about. WHY DO WE DREAM???

I don't know if there is actually a concrete answer to this question but I have come across some interesting theories, if you will, concerning our mental brain activity in the dreaming process. In an article I found recently, a Neuroscientist by the name of Mark Solms explains how dreams may protect and distract our brains from the outside world and allow the body to rest.
According to Solms, he suggests that we may very well have been confusing cause and effect. He says that dreams are not a by-product of sleep as assumed all along but may very well be what allows us to sleep in the first place.
"Dreams protect sleep, " Solms says. His iconoclastic view of dreams springs from emerging evidence that REM sleep and dreaming are not synonymous, and that the brain mechanisms involved in REM sleep may be entirely different from those involved in dreaming. Dreaming, in fact, is now thought to recruit areas of the brain involved in higher mental functions. So in essence he's saying that dreaming is a diversion and without this diversion, the brain would be urging us up and out into the world to keep it fully engaged. Solms also states that " dreams are a delusional hallucinatory state " -driven by activation of the brain's basic motivational system. And like delusions, they appear to be stoked by an abundance of the neurotransmitter dopamine. Scientists now know that dopamine plays a critical role in directing our attention. The neurochemical dictates what is important in our environment, regardless of whether that environment is inside us or outside. Under dopamine's influence, events or thoughts jump out of the background, grab our attention, move us to act and drive goal-directed behavior.

Dreams trick us into thinking we're out striving in the wider world. Solms says that the fundamental problem of being alive is that we must get all our needs met in the outside world. The brain has an answer to that; it has developed a kind of unified motivational course variously called the " seeking " or " wanting " system, an orchestration of primitive and higher neural structures that orients us to the outside world with an air of anticipation and positive expectancy. As Solms puts it, " It's an all-purpose looking-for-pleasure-in-the-world drive " that sends animals out to satisfy their needs.

Pioneering neuroscientist Jaak Panksepp describes the seeking system as a " goad without a goal " ( goals, such as gathering food, being dictated by the specific situation ). It is a readiness for action, an appetitive arousal, the neurobiological decendant of Freud's idea of libido. Representing a very basic function of the brain, it commands and activates an array of neural circuits.
Researchers mapping the functions of the brain have shown that the hallucinations of psychosis involve hyperactivation of the seeking system's structures. They also involve dysregulated dopamine transmission. Increasingly viewed as " the wind of the psychotic fire, " dopamine prompts the brain to assign abnormal importance to its own internal representations. Delusions, in other words, are errors of salience attribution. We over value our own thoughts, which are mistaken for perpetual experience of the world.

Dreams share many qualities with hallucinations. They are the hallucinations we all experience. Both dreams and hallucinations involve intensive activation of the seeking system. And Solms points to accumulating evidence that dreaming, like hallucinating, is driven by dopamine. French neuroscientist Claude Gottesmann reported that dopamine release in the brain's nucleus accumbens, a site long recognized to be involved in the hallucinations of schizophrenia, is maximal during dream sleep. " Dreaming and schizophrenia have the same neurochemical background, " Gottesmann says.

Other studies show that the dopamine-boosting drug L-dopa, commonly used to treat Parkinson's Disease, prompts people to have more dreams, more emotional content to their dreams and more bizarre dreams. Driven by dopamine, dreams fill our minds with myriad stimuli that feel worthy of our attention, says Solms. " That's necessary because the body is withdrawn from the external world. "

Goaded into seeking but blocked from action by paralyzing neurochemicals released during dream sleep, we feed on our own internal representations of the world. And we wake hungry for new experiences that build our psychic cinema of internal representations.

Says Solms, " The dopamine hypothesis is at the core of why we dream. "

-So there you have it.....

SO CUPID'S PASSED ME BY AGAIN.......

WELL, IT'S THAT TIME AGAIN. VALENTINE'S DAY IS UPON US. ANYONE DOING ANYTHING SPECIAL THIS YEAR? QUITE HONESTLY I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL. I NEVER REALLY DO. I MEAN, LOVE IS A BEAUTIFUL THING AND ALL BUT I DON'T HAVE A VALENTINE SO IT'S NOT SO GREAT FOR ME.
SOMETIMES I SIT BACK AND TAKE A LOOK AT HOW MY LIFE HAS PLAYED OUT. I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT I'M NOT HAPPY WITH IT. NOT AT ALL.

I SURELY THOUGHT BY NOW AT THE AGE OF 42, I'D AT LEAST HAVE SOMEONE SPECIAL IN MY LIFE. I THOUGHT I'D BE MARRIED OR AT LEAST HAVE A SIGNIFICANT OTHER BUT THAT ISN'T THE CASE. NOPE, THAT SEEMS TO BE JUST A DREAM OR FANTASY IN MY LIFE. NOT A REALITY. I GUESS I SOUND LIKE I'M FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF WALLOWING IN SELF PITY. I ENJOY MY FREEDOM BUT SOMETIMES I JUST GET SO TIRED OF BEING ALONE. I SURELY DON'T WANT TO GROW OLD BY MYSELF.

I GUESS THE THING THAT REALLY UPSETS ME MOST IS THAT MOST OF THE MEN WHOM I FIND ATTRACTIVE AND/OR COMPATIBLE TO ME ARE ALREADY TAKEN. AND THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO PRETEND TO BE SOMETHING THAT THEY'RE NOT. I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT. PERHAPS IT'S JUST NOT MY TIME RIGHT NOW. WHO KNOWS......





I SEE SO MANY HAPPY COUPLES EACH DAY. IT'S NICE TO SEE. I JUST WISH THAT I COULD BE AMONG THEM. THEY SAY THERE IS SOMEONE FOR EVERYONE. I KNOW THIS SHOULD BE TRUE ALTHOUGH I'M BEGINNING TO WONDER. I REALIZE THAT I'M NOT THE MOST ATTRACTIVE WOMAN IN THE WORLD BUT I'M NOT THE UGLIEST PERSON ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH EITHER. HMMMMM........






OKAY, MAYBE THAT'S A LITTLE HARSH. LOL
I DON'T HATE VALENTINE'S DAY. IT JUST MAKES ME SAD.

ANYWAY, I WISH A HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE WHO HAS SOMEONE SPECIAL IN THEIR LIFE.